Today is a special day for me. As I woke up during the night to eat ice cream because I was starving and stupid (FML) I realized that obsessing over calories will ALWAYS keep me disordered. So after logging all my meals in My Fitness Pal for the past 3 years, I decided that I would stop this as of TODAY! I know I won’t stop trying to average what I’m eating right away, but I know that stop logging every gram of lettuce I eat will help. The eating disorder thoughts are a part of me now and have been for a while and I am seriously not convinced that they will ever go away completely. But I know that I’m entertaining them by the habits that I have on a daily basis. So F*CK calorie counting! I love to eat healthy and this will stay for sure but if I want to eat 21g of almonds instead of 17g (17g is 100 calories) then be it! I certainly wont die and I’ll be satisfied and maybe my risks of binge eating will decrease because I won’t be obsessing over food anymore. I tried this before but never really let go. Now I’m give it my all and see in the long run how it works. I know that this process won’t change me overnight but I’m curious to see where it’ll take me. If only I could go back to my old ways of not obsessing over EVERYTHING that I eat, I’ll be a happy camper!!
On another, here are some samples of what I’ve been eating lately.
That’s all I have for you today! Go check out Peas and Crayons to see what everyone has been eating!